#93 – Lines from Yukio Mishima

“The highest point at which human life and art meet is in the ordinary. To look down on the ordinary is to despise what you can’t have. Show me a man who fears being ordinary, and I’ll show you a man who is not yet a man.”

Thirst for Love

 

“Again and again, the cicada’s untiring cry pierced the sultry summer air like a needle at work on thick cotton cloth.”

The Decay of the Angel

 

“Thus in a single phrase I can define the great illusion concerning ‘love’ in this world. It is the effort to join reality with the apparition.”

― The Temple of the Golden Pavilion

 

“The perfectly ordinary girl and the great philosopher are alike: for both, the smallest triviality can become the vision that wipes out the world.”

The Decay of the Angel

 

“He was always thinking of death, and this had so refined him that the physical seemed to fall away, freeing him from the pull of earth and enabling him to walk about some distance above its surface. Indeed he felt that even his distaste and hatred for the affairs of the world no longer stirred him deeply.”

Runaway Horses

 

“As he saw it, there was only one choice — to be strong and upright, or to commit suicide.”

― Seven Stories

#92

“Each man’s life represents a road toward himself, an attempt at such a road, the intimation of a path. No man has ever been entirely and completely himself.”

or

Each human being is born with an inmost map, a genetic animus, a Gordian knot. When we enter the world, by and by the outer map overlays the inner, and the place we find ourselves is the ineluctable labyrinth. To still find the way to oneself, despite the confusion. To unravel the skeins latent in man. To stir from the fugue. This is the purpose of the egoic life.

#90 – Westworld (OK-making)

The Kundabuffer is the ‘OK-making’ device of the mind that I have for so long intuited. It’s what I’m driving at in the fifth paragraph of #8.

[” But the mind filters on, makes OK, shields the tender mortal eyes. Binds them once more to its will, booming but one elemental command: ‘LIVE ON.’ “]

It is a relative of the psychic censor, but this concept has a much stronger Gnostic redolence. That most strange and unsayable sense of recognition in watching Westworld… the android in us getting a bit self-conscious.

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The scene of a car-crash passed at speed; the look in the face of a roadside vagrant, the faces on the tube; beauty that calls the soul to arms; intimations of animality; clearings steeped in silence far from scents of the formicary.

A glitch of thought that leads by accident to an inaccessible door of the mind, an uncanny sense of vertigo.

‘What door?’

‘Doesn’t look like anything to me.’

 

 

 

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A note on reading entries

Entries are rooted in the state of mind experienced at the time of writing – they are not representative in any way apart from being standalone expressions of a particular mental vantage.

#88 – Hyperborea

Written under influence. A felicitous expression of an inner self.

 

I am a creature come from extreme lands. I am a mountaineer in an environment of flatlands.

I want     –     each moment to be a convergence on the moment, I want each action to be one that drinks Life, thirsty and triumphant, from the well of Death.

For each step I take, to bring me closer to the purer place, where the land is pristine snow and the air is rarefied…

To breach with mortal foot the door of eternity.

 

 

#87 – Work to remember

Do not fall into the easy trap of believing the world boring and given. We must hold fast the knowledge that we have hardly begun the business of traversing the path of true will – that the world is a living cosmos, and that there is much Work left to be done.

Hold this strand in the intellect until the heart sends up its energy. Discipline yourself in this.

We must not see our awakening as an externality to be conferred on us, but as something that we ourselves must actively work to author in the arena of our lives.

When the Life-energy sets on our lives and abandons us, we must hold on to the memory of her through the valleys of Night, until our greater faith is rewarded with recrudescing Day.

#86 – Notes from the Underground: Introvert’s Invective

Those of you self-certain, hear this hear this…

People are this way only because they have forgotten how ridiculous they really are. They have forgotten how brittle is their house of fictions, how contrived, how sodden with folly…

If they remembered, they would not be so quick to act, so anxious to speak their nothings. In your inmost privacy, you know this is the truth – that your cock-surety is a rinkydink design adrift on roiling seas of nihil and chaos.

Of the coming ruin, there is no doubt. My wish for you is simply that your raft be smote sooner. Understand me, this is an altruistic wish – it minimises the amount of life you will spend chasing eidolons and baited desires.

May you be wracked on all sides by uncertainties and doubts, till you are reclaimed by the sea, and forced to build a truer raft.