Surveying my beliefs and attitudes – the antinatalism, the gnosticism, the philosophical pessimism, my keen sense of and preoccupation with the ‘illusions’ and blindnesses of the world. I appear really to be set against life, against being here.
As Metzinger points out, “from a traditional evolutionary perspective, philosophical pessimism is maladaption.” My current strength of feeling about personal antinatalism – the ne plus ultra in maladaptive thinking – emphasises this.
Consciousness is a burden, still more consciousness is insufferable.
No longer share the sentiments of the last line. It’s a certain kind of consciousness that is the burden.